Current mood:

gloomy

Happy ---- Easter.
Okay it's PMS time here. I noticed last night I had a few cramps. I just started Birth Control Pills - Ovcon25 (of course when everyone and their mother is on OrthoTri i get the odd kind),a nd besides screwing up my system for the first two months i didnt really have a side effect. A few cramps here and there.

Usually the first day, or day before it started I would be doubled over in pain howling and being naseaus, etc running back and forth to the bathroom -Well, it's back. This is the 3rd month of the pills when they're supposed to work. Yes, I got my little friend right on time (the first two months i had it 2wice each month to get used to the pills)

But now i"m doubled over howling as my stomach burns on fire and my lower back is shot with tightened muscles. And, I just ate Easter dinner over the boyfriend's house - and their family tradition is to go to the moveis - i said i'd be back. But i can't go like this b/c i can't even walk and i'm stuck running to and from the bathroom. And to top it off they're seeing Ice Age - the animated movie ive been dying to see.

Ugh. the Pain. The Exhaustion when it's over and the Frustration of not being able to go. And the extra-hormones from the pills ontop of my frustration just made me start crying when the boyfriend called to see if i was going. I said no and he asked what was wrong, so I said "It's kinda gross, but Every month the day before or the first day I double over in pain and my stomach burns on fire, I run back and forth to the bathroom ready to be sick.." and here's where i started crying "..And the pills are supposed to stop this but they're not. And i can't help it."

After a little text war and finding out that nothing's wrong and his family doesnt hate me (i hope he's not lying) - I still hate this pain. I hate the pills aren't working. I hate being a girl.